Wow I can't believe it's been over two years already since I lost my pink KoKo. I looked at this blog a couple of times on October 17 of this year, and thought about positing because so much has happened since I lost my baby. I got my GED. I'm in college. I'm almost finished my book. I lost my job. My oldest child became an adult. The list goes on and on. I decided not to post a blog on the second anniversary of her her passing but I wrote something on Facebook instead. Now I've decided to share it as a blog post.
, "You thought this is where you'd find me tonight?" I replied, "That's what I thought, it was so a year ago, but I see I was wrong", so I left.
My eyes haven't rained all day but then a good friend told me he missed his chance to say goodbye to someone he knew that passed away today. And I was reminded of........... then my cheeks became the path of a waterfall. I realize instead of trying to be strong, submitting to my weaknesses is courageous in itself. I miss my daughter and I was afraid to revisit the pain that comes along with that. I'm not afraid anymore.
I'm sad that I wasn't able to say goodbye, and God spoke through my friend who helped me to remember that which subconsciously I attempt to forget. I hurt gravely from that missed opportunity, two years ago today. But though I didn't say goodbye I was blessed by my daughters presence in my life, and for the right set of circumstance for our hello I am truly grateful. I know she is with God, and God is and will always be here, in, next to and around me, so we are together after all. I love and miss my Uwakokunre Ofure Ayinde.
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